Is it not interesting how we can have friends who we are the actual opposite of? When watching a movie, she would fast forward the movie until the end, then if she likes it, she will start it all over again, she does the same thing while reading books. Then there’s me; when watching, I want to start from the beginning, no distractions, no spoilers; if you’ve watched the movie kindly get something to keep you busy while am watching. Otherwise, brace yourself to watch some drama from me because I would laugh, cry, and even pause it a little to pray; too much, I know. Reminds me of the movie, Acrimony that left me emotional for two weeks. The very thought of it right now actually makes me want to cry, it was unfair.
Waiting is an issue that human beings find hard to deal with, especially when you feel like the wait is a waste of time and that the next season has better things.
It is actually funny because when I was small, I couldn’t wait to start walking, I couldn’t wait to start going to school, I couldn’t wait to get to class one, then eight, then high school and currently I can’t actually wait to graduate, then get a job, then live on my own, then get married, then have kids, then… well I haven’t gotten that far after the kids. Sorry to say, but sometimes I couldn’t wait for the service to end, even when I know I didn’t have anything better to do later, I just want the next big thing. We end up finding out that we rushed to the grave. We end up realising that we rushed with life, went through the motions without enjoying anything and end up facing the end of life without actually living it.
How about we take on life by the horns and experience everything that God has in store for us with the full knowledge of Psalm 139:16 like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the of my life were spread out before you, the days of my life all prepared before I’d even lived one day. How about like the movie, know that the best times are yet to come but while we are waiting for those ideal times have fun in the not so good times.
Let’s take one day at a time, one experience at a time, one season of life at a time. Let’s take time and breathe, remember to breathe. Life has a way of making you too busy to even live it. Instead of saying that I can’t wait for this season to end, how about we experience it and come out with the fruit that the Lord wants us to come out with because it could be that the output of one stage of life or season is the input of the next one.
What I understand about movies is that it is not just about the end, it is the little episodes that make the whole movie worth it, it is all about all those emotions that are stirred in each episode that make the end worth it. It is that laughter, those tears, that pain, that suspense, that life brings which makes it worth living. It is the assurance of Psalm 139 that makes us confident that the Lord is the script writer and every ‘episode’ we go through is relevant, whether we think it’s a mistake or not.
I know that if we had a choice, we would fast forward some parts of our lives and freeze other parts. Unfortunately, with life, there’s no cheating, you’ll have to read the whole book watch the whole movie, you will have to live with that suspense of what tomorrow holds. Unfortunately, with life, today you will be laughing so hard and tomorrow you will be so broken to the point of wanting to end your life altogether. One day you have everything all figured out and the next day you’re even unsure of whether to get out of bed or just continue sleeping.
While am waiting for that ‘better season’ to come, that ideal season that is so well planned in my head, I will enjoy this one, I will experience it with all of me, tears and pain included, chastening and correcting included. And most importantly, I will experience it even on my knees, because this life is about living and living is messed up sometimes and it needs one to be constantly on their knees to get perspective
While am waiting for that ‘better stage’ to come, I will surrender to Him in order for Him to make me that which the next stage requires, instead of grumbling and whining, I will let Him do what He only knows is necessary for that next stage.
While am waiting, I won’t fast-forward or peek into the future with astrology and palm reading, I won’t try put on repeat mode the season that He clearly says is done. I won’t let my anxieties and insecurities push me to stuff that will make me regret. I will allow Him to do things at His own pace, I will allow Him to take time in whatever thing He says is worth taking time on, because after all, it is the teacher that declares the student ready for the next level.
While am waiting, I will wait in you, with a heart that is expectant because I am confident enough to know that there is no good thing You will withhold from them that seek you diligently. Finally, in the wait, I will get to learn that there’s no season that’s better than the other because just like a movie or a book they all sum up to the end of the story, and for it all sums up to, ‘well done oh good and faithful servant’.